I sometimes feel that I’m just wasting my time and my life, doing the things that don’t really matter. And many times I just feel insignificant.

Do you sometimes feel you’re just a clutter, messing around this world? Do you know the purpose of why you are here? I’ve read a lot of books in the hope of finding my purpose in living but sometimes it’s just not enough. There was a time that I thought I knew my purpose, that finally after a long while I know exactly what to do in my life and I thought I was pleasing God with what I’m doing but something terrible happened that made me realize that it was not God’s plan for my life. I was once again lost and living without a purpose.

I do feel insignificant but I know that God loves me, and for now it’s more than enough for me.

Last night we had our weekly family devotion and quite honestly I was not up for it. I usually love our family devotion time because it’s the only time in the week that we could just sit back and give praises to God. It’s also a time to share each other’s feelings and update on what’s going on with our lives. But last night, I’ve got a heavy heart. I know that God has blessed me with so much and He never left my side at the time that I needed Him the most. But after being sick with herpes zoster for almost two months and my right eye almost got blind, I was praying so hard to get better. But last Saturday I had an executive check up and my laboratory results revealed that my kidneys are slowly fading because of Lupus, I was devastated. How can I still be sick when I feel just fine?

As a Christian we should always be thankful in everything even in adversities and when things are not going according to our plan but I have to say sorry to God for I came short in trusting Him, my fears clouded my faith and I’ve been battling with Lupus (among other things) for almost seven years now and God has proven time and time again how powerful and majestic He is by extending His grace upon me. I know there’ll be tough times again and my journey with this illness will somehow get worse but I know that I have God on my side and He is stronger than any disease. I stand firm and I’m keeping the faith.

I started out blogging almost four years ago and it was never my plan to go into Paid Blogging. It took a lot of convincing from my fellow bloggers to persuade me to use my blog to earn some money. I was hesitant at first and I had no idea what I was getting myself into but because my blogger friends encouraged me to give it a try, I entered into Blog Advertising and discovered how fulfilling it was. I am actually enjoying it now. I mean, what’s not to love I’m addicted to blogging and earning from it is just the icing on the cake.

Our car insurance is expiring next month and I need to find time to get our car insurance quote so that I can choose the best plan for us. I think in choosing your car insurance you should always consider its benefits and not to mention you should look for something that you can afford. Good news is there’s a lot of car insurance out there that are low enough for you to afford.

I miss my nephew. How I wish we live nearby so I can see him as often as I want and can help take care of him. He is just so cute, charming and adorable. He’s very cuddly too. Just one smile from him wipes my sorrow away and when he giggles goodness, he really makes me happy. He’s so active now and sometimes it’s difficult to ask him to stay still but apparently when he’s sitting in his high chair, a Stokke Tripp Trapp he manages to be quiet, I guess he loves that chair a lot.

It’s been awhile and I miss photo hunting, anyway while searching for today’s theme I realize that most of my pictures are so dull and I just can’t find anything colourful, does it mean I’m such a dark person? I hope not.

I found this beautiful birthday cake of one of my god children and it’s so lively and has full of colors. Winnie the Pooh is also my favorite cartoon character and I got quite a few collection of those.

Happy Weekend everyone!

A tag from Tere, thanks sis!

We need friends for many reasons,
all throughout the season.
We need friends to comfort us
when we are sad,
and to have fun with us when we are glad.

We need friends to give us good advice,
We need someone we can count on,
and treat us nice.

We need friends to remember us
one we have passed
sharing memories that will always last.

Spread the poem of friendship.

1. Everyday Life 2. Words of Love 3. Sheng’s Simple Thoughts . . . 4. Just Another Day 5. Blessings in Life 6. Thoughts and Beyond 7. Journey in Life 8. Tere’s World 9. Dancing With Butterflies 10. Just Let Go 11. Pieces of Me 12. Twisted Angel 13. Blessed Chic 14. YOU!

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